Teaching, ADHD and the Knock-On Effects

anonymous

Teaching, ADHD and the Knock-On Effects
by Anonymous.

 

This post is going out live from my ADHD brain so that you can get a bit of a taster of what it is like to deal with it. First, I totally know that you need a definition of ADHD so I’ll plough through that quickly and then get on with how it relates to teaching. 

ADHD, or Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder sounds like a big, serious thing to some of us and to others just a throwaway remark for self-deprecation or as an insult to others. Some people who are diagnosed with the condition are more on the inattentive side of the spectrum, some on the hyperactive side, but even then it is not quite as simple as that. Some of us who are inattentive hyperfocus on special subjects and topics. Some of us who are hyperactive can’t summon the energy to get things done until we hit panic mode three minutes before a deadline. Myself, I fall toward the inattentive side of ADHD. It’s sort of a spectrum. Despite the “Disorder” in the name, some medical professionals see it as a positive thing, many of them with ADHD themselves. I do not because I find it a massive pain to live with and deal with on an hour-to-hour and day-by-day basis, and have done even prior to my diagnosis, aged 38, just a little under a year ago. There is help out there, often very positive in its outlook, though sometimes I wish there were a bit more acknowledgement of the darkness. 

So, today is a rare day off. I went shopping and listened to a podcast about parsing language, and then I wondered about how the visuospatial sketchpad’s role in working memory plays a role in this, and then I wondered about whether I should make more use of pictures in class, particularly image search functions, and then I wondered whether I could program a web page to link image searches and corpus searches in the same window and show students visual representations of new language at will. Then I remembered that I have to send an email to some other teachers that I am planning to collaborate with in some corpus work, and then I remembered that I wanted to download some new corpus software to my other computer, and then I went online, and then I got sucked into Twitter and lost about an hour of writing time that I had blocked out in my diary to write this. 

You may have noticed that ‘and’ and ‘then’ play an important part of the previous paragraph. The ideas come thick and fast and sometimes it just feels that the idea data is too dense to process in real time, everything is moving much too fast to get everything, and sometimes it feels like ideas that are half-formed are actually fully-formed. Apparently ADHDers are great at the start of projects but not so amazing at the follow through. 

This leads to one of our major tensions with language teaching and learning: the adoption of psychology, particularly educational cognitive psychology. There is all this talk of Growth Mindset and Grit at the moment and how resilience is important in reaching your goals/following your pattern and how just concentrating you can get into the Flow and with Deliberate Practice you can get better and… and… can we just stop for a moment. I can’t focus on very much for very long unless it is one of my pet topics (often work related, but not always; currently these are, in no particular order: ADHD, neuropsychology in semantic mapping of words, listening and decoding of words, teaching of pronunciation, developing a corpus linguistics approach to Task-Based Language Teaching, peanut butter M&Ms, cooking better and handling my lack of focus, and the Getting Things Done productivity system). I’m a workaholic, another common, but not 100% widespread, ADHD trait, so don’t give me the line that I lack grit or self-regulation (making yourself do things you ought to do). I also actually hate this workaholic trait and wish it would just go away. I know my self-regulation is poor so I put into place strategies to counteract the lack of self-regulation. One of these is personal deadlines prior to final deadlines. Lately, I have also asked stakeholders in my work (i.e. coworkers who need stuff from me, or Anna the iTDI Blog editor, and other editors of blogs and journals) to give me an email to nudge me into finishing things or actually getting started. Mostly, though, it’s all written down so I don’t have to worry too much. Of course my failsafe is all-night sessions to get things finished but this happens less and less nowadays. I get into states of Flow frequently, too frequently, due to hyperfocus. This is usually during enjoyable activities, but it does sometimes happen with mundane work. It also happens with language learning. I am a bad student but I am not a bad learner. I do study, I just don’t always study the set work, though if something is explained to me with a rationale, then I usually do it. How many of your learners are like me? It is easy to get frustrated when things don’t go according to plan, such as the wrong homework being done. It is even easier to get frustrated when you are an ADHDer; put two of us together and we can set one another off, although we empathise with one another outside the heat of the moment. 

Oh, the teaching. Yes. The teaching is usually fine. Because I have a lifetime of embarrassment behind me due to things not done, not remembered and not done properly, I try hard in lessons to minimise this. I already said I am a workaholic and I am always fine tuning the lessons I teach, often while I teach, just as advised – it is good practice. I do sometimes skip lesson sections because I only skim read my lesson plan during lessons, but this does mean that there are some new lesson activities created on the fly in place of what was omitted. I teach a lot more reactively, because if I carry a list in my mind, it will be incomplete. Am I a good teacher because of my ADHD? Definitely not. I just have to adopt these good practices because if I don’t, chaos would definitely ensue. Are these strategies helpful to people who do not live with ADHD? Absolutely. ADHDers are advised to use diaries and sticky notes constantly; it doesn’t mean that you cannot use them if you do not live with ADHD. I also teach to my strengths, that is, multiple different lessons with different groups in different contexts. I would love a full-time job but I worry about whether this would have a negative impact on me as I enjoy having a week full of different university students at different levels with different needs, junior high and high school students with their sense of playfulness, and work-based learners whose diverse needs keep me flitting from idea to idea but productively. 

Am I ‘out’ as ADHD at work? To some students, yes. Not to all. Unless it impacts directly upon people, I don’t tell people at work, particularly bosses. People do not understand, or actually believe they understand but do not. So, no, my deans at university, my principals at school and the dispatchers who send me to companies are unaware. I do not medicate my ADHD except with coffee so there would be no awful side effects to deal with. If I did medicate, that would be a choice I would have to make. 

So, basically, ping-ponging ideas interconnected in a giant matrix lead me into workaholic practices and make me a better teacher accidentally because I can hyperfocus on things that interest me greatly (and teaching does, hence the massive investment in terms of time and money), and I already reflect upon myself in daily life so as to avoid embarrassment and problems. This is routine for me as a teacher because of life. It also leads me to disappear in internet black holes when reading about things that matter to me so I can actually be quite intolerant of things I perceive as either nonsense or ideologically motivated. Maybe this filtering is normal. But, anyway, yes, I lead a double life as the responsible teacher who teaches his lessons, but also as an ADHDer who may be thought of as clumsy, forgetful, irresponsible or struggling, but I’m just trying to live my life the same as you.

The blogger is a previous iTDi writer who wishes to remain anonymous.

 

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Mental Health – There’s a lot you can do. And you should.

Chris Mares

Mental Health – There’s a lot you can do. And you should.
by Chris Mares.

 

Having been brought up in England, a long time ago, mental health was not something that was ever talked about. We were taught to get on with it. Stiff upper lip and all that. Everything was always fine and if it wasn’t, no one would know what to say, except “Fancy a cup of tea?” Most males were hopelessly adrift from their emotions and were quite unaware of how to deal with the stressors in their lives, other than going to the pub, supporting a football team, or smoking cigarettes. 

Now, looking back, I see that mental health in ELT needs to be addressed from the get go. Teaching is draining. Especially when starting out. The fears we have all experienced are numerous: Do I have enough material? What do I do if someone asks me a grammar question I can’t answer? What happens if I can’t remember their names or they don’t like me? What if I can’t think of anything to do? I’m teaching too many classes… 

The list goes on. In my case, many years ago, I got divorced. That led to depression. That’s mental illness. And then, when my youngest daughter went to college, I no longer had to pay child support or alimony and, without realizing it, I went temporarily mad. In a manic state of euphoria I bought boats and bikes and almost bankrupted myself before suddenly coming to the realization that I had to stop. 

Over the course of my career and certainly during my teacher training I often allude to the importance of mental health. We owe it to ourselves and our students to be both physically and mentally healthy. 

The two points I’d like to make concern professionalism and the need to actively tend to our mental well-being. 

During my times of duress, I found that I could, like an actor, hide behind my cheery teaching persona. Teaching, in fact, was a relief. I could escape my crumbling marriage, and temper my unbridled spending. Without teaching I may have come even more adrift than I already was. 

On a personal level, being in the classroom, interacting with students, preparing and writing materials, all of these activities prevented my mental health from deteriorating. 

My second point relates to how we address mental health. We need to treat it like physical health, i.e. you have to actively do things in order to remain or become mentally healthy. I know what works for me and perhaps some of these activities will work for you. Firstly, I need to get satisfaction from my teaching by teaching all my students and making the classroom experience both positive and worthwhile. Secondly, I need to have at least one writing project going that doesn’t relate to our field. At the same time, I need to have one writing project that does relate to our field, either a blog post, or materials for teaching. I also need to be learning something – currently new songs on the guitar and Spanish through Duolingo. The fanfare at the end of successful completion of a five-minute lesson is highly rewarding, motivating, and addictive. In my case I can only do these things if I do them at the same time of day. Every day. In short, I make them a practice. 

Lastly, mental health is not possible without physical health. Rest, exercise, and a healthy diet are all central to this endeavor. The body supports the brain. The brain generates the mind. 

There is one coda – honesty. Honesty with one’s self and others. If something is bothering you, admit it to yourself and take action. If someone is bothering you, the same applies, take action. 

To ensure success, when you wake up in the morning, say the word “gratitude” and think of three things you’re grateful for. Then think of someone to forgive, even if it is only yourself. Next, remember that family and friends are more important than anything. And breaking bread together brings us closer. I bake brownies once a week. My students now order me to. I give the rest to strangers on campus. 

It’s amazing what small acts of random kindness can do. 

 

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Burnout, exhaustion, and mindfulness

Theodora Papapanagiotou

Burnout, exhaustion, and mindfulness
by Theodora Papapanagiotou.

 

A year ago, day of my life looked like this:

6 a.m. – wake up, cook, clean;

9 a.m. – go to the office (working as a material developer at that time);

5 p.m. – start teaching my private students and groups;

11 p.m. – go home, prepare for the next day, tidy up, and go to sleep.

 

This was my life for the past three – four years. I just went on as if on autopilot. Motivation? Probably next to zero. Mood? Really bad. One word culd describe it well – exhaustion.

We have all been there. Tired, no inspiration, no motivation. It does not matter if we love our job, it just happens so that we get burnt out.

So what is burnout and how can we get over this?

Burnout is not so much about your job. It’s about choices. It’s about how you want to live. If you realise these choices, you can get closer to the causes of your stress.

You never understand immediately that you are burnt out, but it doesn’t appear suddenly either. The signs are there, however you choose not to see them. You only notice when it is too late.

So what happens when you experience burnout?

You don’t feel like you did before. You lose your enthusiasm, your spirit. You don’t want to participate in social events anymore, you don’t want to be around successful people and when you do, you feel bad about yourself.

You don’t have new ideas. It’s hard for you to think of anything new. Going to work seems like a torture. You just keep going without thinking much about it.  And you also keep complaining. Everything seems wrong – your classes, students,  books, colleagues…

You don’t share anything anymore. You refuse to help others. No one is helping you get over this, right?

Wrong… Because there is someone who can actually help you. This someone is you.

Have you ever thought of what you do to take care of yourself? Do you take care of yourself at all? And how can being mindful help you see the world with another, more realistic pair of eyes?

What is mindfulness and why is it so important?

According to Merriam-Webster dictionary, mindfulness is the practice of maintaining a nonjudgmental state of heightened or complete awareness of one’s thoughts, emotions, or experiences on a moment-to-moment basis. In other words, being mindful means understanding yourself and how you feel, what is happening and how you react to that. Do you like the way you behave in this specific situation? What can you change?

I have a small task for you. Take a piece of paper. Divide it into 3 columns. In the first one write what you do for others, for your students, your boss, your family. In the second column write what you do for yourself. I bet the first column has much more in it. Now take a deep breath and use the third column to write what you would love to do. Something fun, something useful, something you have always wanted to do. And then make time to do it. Even 5 minutes a day counts.

You matter.

 

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Burnout in ELT

Roseli Serra

Burnout in ELT
by Roseli Serra.

 

Photo from ELTPics by Branislav Kubecka

I’d like to thank all EFL/ESL teachers who agreed to participate and collaborate in my research of this important issue. 

Burnout:  physical or mental collapse caused by overwork or stress (Oxford dictionary). Burnout is a theme which seems to have been frequently discussed among EFL teachers recently. I myself have reflected about it since I experienced a certain awful situation in 2012. I can assure you it is as if one steals the floor under your feet and the consequences are extreme and pure chaos. And  I tell you: either you change or lose your physical and mental health.

It is as if the body and the mind put an end point: “Now it’s enough!” A devastating weariness reveals an absolute lack of energy. At work, normally competent and attentive person turns on the “autopilot”. Instead of motivation there is irritation, lack of concentration, discouragement, a sense of failure. These are indications of a cruel and difficult diagnosis that progresses in hospitals, companies, schools … The burnout syndrome, or professional exhaustion, which results from prolonged stress at work.

“It’s when the house falls. I stayed out of my house for 14 hours, three days in a row this week… it was horrible. By the last day, I was already questioning everything in my life. Basically it’s the fact that we have to work long hours in order to make a good living. And we don’t just give classes: we must prepare lessons, correct students’ productions, go to meetings with parents, and there are also the pedagogical meetings. It’s very exhausting.” (by an EFL teacher)

 

“… On top of that, there is the ‘emotional labour’ of facing several classes of students each day and attempting to create a conducive learning environment and ‘good vibes’. All of these aspects are challenging and draining and too often institutions just see teachers’ time as a series of time segments that can be divided up arbitrarily without considering the psychological and emotional states and needs of teachers”. (by an EFL teacher)

“Something that affects self-employed teachers – or teachers working for schools that provide in-company classes – is a lack of support and no sense of belonging: rushing from one place to another and not having any colleagues to share concerns/ideas with. In many teaching contexts, teachers have no access to social media or online platforms where they could form healthy PLNs. In Brazil, for instance, mainly in big cities teaching means facing heavy traffic and hours of commuting to go to students’ workplaces and homes. It can be exhausting”. (by an EFL teacher)

In general, teachers I talked with listed the following causes of stress:

  • Being underpaid:  Low salaries do not match the amount of work and extra work teachers have to do. In some countries they can barely survive paying the bills with their wages.
  • Accumulation of tasks: Yes, you have to prepare classes, call parents, be a nanny, a psychologist, a secretary, prepare lesson plans, prepare and correct tests, and give feedback to your students and their parents.
  • Excessive responsibilities: Such as encountering students with no demand for the service they pay for. Having to go out of your way to talk a student into learning makes it all much more exhausting. 
  • Perfectionism: Perfectionism leads to the search for excellence at times impossible, and idealism in relation to the profession, charging a personal engagement beyond limits.
  • Focus on work as an exclusive source of pleasure: “…As teachers we walk into a class and we have to be physically, mentally and emotionally available for our students. It is a process of suppressing our own feelings and needs in order to ‘give’ to others. That is why we can walk out of a great class and feel like a deflated balloon. <…> Ok, so that is the essence of being in a caring profession, but what makes it difficult is that often many people surrounding us do not understand what we feel or how to support us and give us back some sustenance. Then we also clash with corporate culture in our workplaces that denigrates the humanist professions and idolises the managers.” (by an EFL teacher)
  • Disrespect on the part of the students, parents, managers and bosses in general. They are very common issues in the Brazilian culture and, according to colleagues from other countries, they are becoming more and more frequent worldwide.
  • Teaching the same course for a long period of time“Some teachers are face-to-face with students over long periods during the day and of course it can be really draining. Also, being held accountable for situations over which we may not have control, such as students who drop out, or students who get low grades – some classes are slower than others but it doesn’t mean they aren’t learning.” (by an EFL teacher)
  • Negative Feedback: When every feedback you get lists more negative points than positive ones. It is when the criteria for assessment are non-negotiable or not very clear to us.
  • Top-down decisions that affect teachers or teacher identity and disempower them by not allowing them to make decisions. “The work teachers do is highly technical. It takes years of training and studies to do what we do. Yet, the people making decisions have very little knowledge of classroom life and challenges. All they are concerned about is learning/student outcome (whatever they call it) plus figures and charts. This is disheartening.” (by an EFL teacher)
  • Lack of acknowledgment: Acknowledgment is one of those things that you don’t think about until you notice it’s missing. Acknowledgment is an expression of gratitude and we need it.

 

Bullying at work, peer pressure, and cyber bullying

It’s more frequent than we think it is. Lots of teachers admitted to being bullied and threatened at work. I myself lived through a situation when a monstrous CEO tried to turn me into an awful leader. He desperately tried to make me act like a bossy leader and lead the team of teachers with no pity, no mercy, no sympathy or humanism. He simply forgot I myself was just a teacher with the position of the DOS in that school. He wanted me to announce HIS decisions to the team as if they were mine. I don’t need to tell you the end of this story. It was 2012, a year I will never forget. Now I know I had to live through this experience.

When I left the company, I was about to turn 49. I had been there for 18 years. I was devastated. I mourned. And like a phoenix, I was reborn from the ashes. I was reborn stronger and I learned priceless lessons. I overcame the struggle thanks to the support of my family, true friends who did not care about me as a position holder but as a person, and thanks to the wonderful PLN I have built.

However, I have seen teachers being cyber bullied on social networks by students and parents, as well as by colleagues who belong to their PLNs. It hurts. It hurts a lot. It hurts when people “forget” you because you are no longer holding a certain position, and then they suddenly “remember” about you when you are in a position of a decision maker. Teachers are not supposed to be powerful. Positions are. What a sad reality!

“It comes from financial problems, from having to work more hours than our body can tolerate <…> The financial crisis we are living in in some countries also does not help much and the pressure increases. I also see that peer pressure is a problem, because you work a lot and still have to develop professionally, because the market imposes this idea, and colleagues do, even if indirectly. A lot of people end up depending on us <…> and it’s not easy at all. I myself went through a violent burnout, which led me to rethink a lot in my career and my life. After falling ill several times, I decided to put my health (physical and mental) first and prioritize LIFE, my well-being, my family. These things happen so we can think better of everything. No money or status guarantee anything in life, family love and self love come first.” ( by an EFL teacher)

 

Getting over the burnout syndrome

Burnout is a disease recognized by the World Health Organization. The problem lies in the difficulty of diagnosing – often it is confused with depression. In general, antidepressants are said to provide some relief. But the treatment involves more than that. “You cannot take a little medicine and keep going at an amazing pace,” warns the World Health Organization. You need to slow down.

  • Abandon the motto “My name is work”.
  • Try teaching a new course every now and then.
  • Make an assessment of costs and benefits: What attracted you to this job and keeps you there, the possibility of helping people or the salary? Whatever the motivation is, focus on what is positive instead of looking at the negatives.
  • Restore professional contacts.
  • Network and look for new chances in the market or another sector of the company if what you do at the moment means exhaustion.
  • Watch for the signals of your body. Exhaustion can be a symptom of various diseases, from anemia to thyroid disorders. If in doubt, set an appointment with a physician. If it’s stress, try to slow down and do one thing at a time.
  • Count on the support of family, friends, or a spiritual practice (whatever it is that you believe – it’s good for your soul).
  • Do not put all the eggs in one basket. Diversify sources of gratification and discover habits that bring you pleasure.
  • Read more, go to the movies, enjoy time with friends and pets.
  • Take care of your lifestyle. Eat well at regular times without overdoing on alcohol and caffeine. Sleep as needed to wake up refreshed.
  • Include physical exercise in your routine.
  • Smile, smile, and smile! Oh, and laugh out loud! It doesn’t hurt at all! Be positive. Play Snoopy philosophy.

As I am about to turn 54, I have decided to slow down a bit, to be more independent, to listen to my body and heart. Age made me realise that I have worked too much (for the others) already, I have given and dedicated too much of my time and energy on working and being an employee. I have learned that, as a teacher, a psychologist, and whatever other role I play, I have my limits.

Finally, I realised it’s about time to have the power of choice. Giving up some things for the sake of health and freedom and/or flexibility is the wisest decision I could take in my early fifties. I know I’m lucky as not everyone has a choice. No worries! There’s a time for everything. Remember that having a job is a blessing but being alive is the biggest blessing of all! And life doesn’t give us a replay.

Enjoy teaching. Enjoy life. Carpe Diem!

 

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